Kavion is here!!!
Dear Child…
As I sit here on this cold chair, with a fever nearly rising above 100. I ask… are you serious?
Dedicated everything to me? Who are you trying to fool. I could rip you apart. You sit and tell the world that he comfort during the worst heart break you been through. But he’s the reason you went through the heart break. You’re stupid DISHONESTY, and BS lies. How dare you put it all on me? You delusional fool. You make me laugh. We can be real for once. Why won’t you tell the whole world what REALLY broke us? Yeah we had good times, but none of it really matters if the long end you not committed to that person.
So desperate, you have to put up Craiglist Ads in the Women Seeking Men section, while we are SUPPOSEDLY together and oh wait, you SUPPOSEDLY dedicated everything into me. Just hush child, fool what you can but you still will remain hungry to fool but never will you get a full course meal. Like that analogy? It’s metaphor!!!! And you know what everything you say is pretty much a metaphor. It’s so ridiculously twisted and painful it’s making my fever rise.
And you call this guy your best friend, good. But nobody talks to each other that way and consider each best friends. Sure you can say it’s none of my business. It was when were together, when you swore with your tainted tongue that you only wanted me and was committed to me. But you dishonest. What a shame. The things I was exposed to. I don’t care what you say to watered it down. No WOMEN, I repeat… no WOMEN (No you’re still a reckless girl) will say they are committed to someone and thinks it’s ok to talk to another guy like that. It’s common sense. You were NEVER COMMITTED to me child, so just cut the BS and be real. And don’t try to use sympathy to explain your actions. “I was confused, I was lost with myself”… blah blah blah. Its ashamed that I fell it too. But that was because I was vulnerable, a guy with a loving, humble heart and will always forgive those that hurt me. I’m still that same guy, but more wise, more clever, more prepared. And you know what that’s all thanks to you Child, so pat yourself on the back for that.
There are countless other actions I could expose of you but I’m just going to save the stress from my typing fingers. Funny how you call the world stupid, when the world is laughing at your ridiculous Tumblr. Can’t even get spelling grammar correct. Nobody is going to take you serious child.
You sit and wonder why the world feels mad at you. But you don’t realize your wrongs and what you do to people. Nor do you give a flying F, excuse me God. This has and will always be your downfall.
Don’t sit here and try to act like you’re the victim. You speak of dishonesty, when you’re one of the most dishonest human beings that I have ever encounter. You lied to me, your parent, your friends, etc… God bless you for your regrets, that makes the heart break I went through a lot better. So a whole year and half of nothing. Kudos for you finding your perfect match. By which you should been with in the first time instead of dragging me through your mind games.
I try to give you the benefit of the doubt, you come to me and said God spoke in your heart. Well I saw nothing Godly of you at the time. I’m not going to judge you, because that’s between you and God. You need a serious reality check.
I’ll tell you what broke us apart Child, since you want to try to pen it all on me. First of all, you were reckless, incapable of a true HONEST, COMMITTED relationship. Second you put bad influential friends and drugs before your family and people who actually cared about you. Third you were dishonest, then questionable things to someone you say you love and want to be with.
YOU created the complications in our relationship. YOU caused the insecurity and distrust and petty things that lead us to big heartbreak.
But you know what, like you said, everything happens for a reason. This heartbreak has blossom for me something miraculously beautiful. And from you’re saying it has for too. Well Thank God, despite everything I still pray for you, and it seems God’s answering my prayers. And thats all that matters. It’s ok, live with a heart full of regrets, let it stained you. I have no regrets, but I do want forget this huge heartbreak so I can live at peace at mind. I forgave you, but not for you. For me, and the woman I’m in love with.
God Bless
I’m not responding to anything else.
Do whatever makes you feel better.
Give me your best shot, you can continue this if you want, but I will always triumph over anything you throw at me. So I quote T.I by saying “Bring Em Out”
- Kaypain
Excerpt from “The Knowledge Of Freedom”
For naive consciousness, the God who is given through thinking always remains a God merely “thought.” Naive consciousness demands that the manifestation should be through means accessible to physical perception. God must appear in bodily form; little value is attached to the evidence of thinking, but only to the Divine Nature being proved by the changing of water into wine in a way which can be testified by the senses.
Day Five of Seven - COMMUNICATION
5. Communication – You may have heard that you have two ears and one mouth for a reason: you should talk half as much as you listen! This is a very true axiom, and you should practice listening more in your relationship. We all want to voice our opinions and be respected, but just remember that when you listen, you are giving your partner the gift of being heard and being respected. Also, when you listen to what your partner says, they will feel much better about themselves and in turn will treat you better and listen to you more. It has to be a two way street, you cannot just listen all the time. However, by paying attention to how to two of you communicate, you can strengthen and deepen your relationship.
Day One of Seven - HONESTY
1. Honesty – This is the cornerstone of any truly healthy relationship. Now, honesty does not mean saying, “Uh, yeah, that dress really does make you look fat,” every chance you get. That’s just a recipe for disaster. However, being honest about money, where you spend your time, and your plans for the future are all examples of honesty that a relationship needs to survive and thrive. Once deception starts to take hold in a relationship, it gets easier and easier for partners to lie to each other. What once started out as a little white lie about a bar tab or where you spent your Saturday afternoon can spiral into bigger and bigger lies. By talking regularly with your partner about the important things in your life, and sharing your fears and concerns, you cement a deeper bond.
